Some Things are Worth the Wait...

...Or Worth the Weight.

OK, something odd is happening.

I am losing weight.

Like, serious weight.

Not as in "omg what is happening I am fading away what is wrong with my health?" weight loss.

But the "I have suddenly and apparently easily found the motivation and willpower to exercise and restrict my calories" kind of weight loss.

I have been wandering around in that hazy place where you just keep snacking and overeating and thinking "I must. I should. I will. But maybe tomorrow" for the past couple of years.

I promised myself that I would get fit and healthy (and lose weight) once I had finished

having kids for both our sakes.

But it didn't happen.

Suddenly my last "baby" is nearly 3 and I am still significantly overweight.

Even 6 months of Zumba-ing my little toosh off only achieved a kilogram of weight loss.

(though it certainly tones me up and improves my fitness)

So I decided that this year from day 1, 1st January, 2010,

I would improve my diet.

And I suddenly found myself "in the zone",

as the kids of today would say.

And it has been surprisingly easy.

I have no inclination for extra snacks.

No cravings.

I've even eaten pizza and cheesecake in moderation.

(one things years of uneducated dieting has taught me is that deprivation is not a basis for long term weight loss)

I can bake goodies without even licking my finger.

I've just gotten myself into the right head space.

And I've lost over 2 kg.

Having young kids I found that I didn't sit down for meals until dinner time.

But I'd eat while I was getting their meals and snacks

and I'd eat in between as well

and then I'd eat too much at dinner.

I will fess up- my one guilty secret is the meal replacement shake for lunch.

The restrictions help me as THAT is what I have for lunch and nothing else,
no matter what the kids are eating.

And I really enjoy the shakes.

(I just feel like a bit of a fraud.

I have been dieting and not dieting enough of my life to know that this is about

long term changes and I am doing that

but there is still something about the words "protein shake" that makes me feel sheepish)

Oddly my body is now completely ambivalent about coffee.

So last week was a tough one-

calorie deprivation (reduction- really not deprivation)

sleep deprivation (we are using the overnight wee alarm for one of our kids at the moment)

and caffeine deprivation...

This does not make for a happy mummy.

But I can say, thanks to the high protein shakes, I don't need to poo anymore.

(Over rated anyway from what I can tell)

My other little trick is keeping busy.

Food has been a focus my whole life and that probably wont change

but if I keep myself doing other things,

I have to say, feeling genuinely hungry is an awesome feeling to have.

It's been a long time since I have let my body dictate my eating needs.

Thanks for listening.