This (apathetic) week...6th November, 2011

...I have been struggling.

Maybe a little bit due to those post-holiday blues.

You know, those ones where you are walking along a gorgeous beach in a foreign country one day

then you are home washing the family's clothes and packing school lunches literally the next.

But it has been more than that.

There have been a couple of sources of anxiety,

the start of the new "to do" lists after clearing all the chores before the holiday

and generally an apathy towards everything.
Me hitting the edge of that occasional bout of depression that I run into.

I had a crafting spurt before going on holidays and, with that,

I seemed to lose my enthusiasm and ability to blog about anything substantial

(I know that you all hang for my insightful and witty social commentary)

This isn't a self-absorbed "Woe-is-me-I-went-on-a-fabulous-overseas-holiday-

but-I-actually-had-to-come-home-and-get-on-with-my-life" post.

You know me.

I was actually glad to get home,

hermit crab that I am.

I was glad to see the kidlets again.

Glad to ease back into my comfort zone.

Glad to stop living out of a suitcase.

(Truly I was glad to stop lying around drink gin,

reading, sleeping in, no responsibilities apart from chosing where to eat

and what is the best mixer to go with rum and gin...)

(Really.)

(I was.)

Suddenly Christmas decorations and horrible elevator-music-Christmas carols

are being played in the shops and there was so much more that I planned to do before 2011 ended.

Now I am adding "write letters to Santa" to my lists

and marking the local Christmas parade on the calendar.

(KeykaLou strap clutch)

I think that I need to do two things.

The first is to set myself more realistic goals of what I can achieve.

I need to prioritise more.

The second is to procrastinate less.

The place where those goals meet should be a more satisfying one.

I also need to just have a day here and there

when I might manage to "lose" the to do lists for a day

and know that the world will go on turning

if I just slacken off.

It is easy to feel like you are having one of those days-

yet you then realise that you have done 3 loads of washing,
cooked for the freezer,

been to the supermarket, paid some bills

and cleaned the loo.

Right now, the priority is to wash the 26 bickie cutters.

That is what happens when you let the kids have a free-for-all

with your biscuit cutter collection.