This year is my 25 year high school reunion.
I have had a friend chipping away at me for months to fly back to Tassie and attend.
I have hovered between being quite keen and curious
or thinking that I'd rather be dropped into a vat of boiling oil.
Part of me can't get past the thought
that the night will turn into a cliche
from a movie or telly show.
All the beautiful people will have married other beautiful people
and have beautiful jobs and beautiful houses
and have beautiful children and
take beautiful holidays
and have beautiful bank account balances.
The dags, of course, will still be dags.
The jocks unquestionably will still be jocks.
(I was in none of these groups.
I was stuck somewhere in-between these groups.
As one of the more-inclined-to-be-a-book-nerd-than-anything-else group,
I tried to fly beneath the radar where I could
and avoid being in the spotlight for any unwanted attention)
Another part of me can't get past the fantasy cliche,
also out of a movie,
where the beautiful people are no longer beautiful
and their lives are a mess.
The jocks have a middle-aged paunch and hair loss.
The dags have blossomed and live fabulous lives.
Then I waltz in
and the music stops
and all heads turn my way and wonder
"Who is that amazingly awesome person who just walked in?"
It is amazing how the thought of a reunion 25 years later brings back all the insecurities
of high school.
But you know what?
I will admit that at first I was thinking that I should try and lose a few kilograms for the occasion
and make sure that the grey hairs were under control
and that I should wear figure-shaping underwear.
But, as soon as I booked the air fares
and made the commitment to attend,
I actually started to think how good it would be to see some of those dear friends
that I shared some fabulous times with.
Other than that, it was a clean slate to meet up with some "strangers" of 25 years
and see what happens.
It became about catching up with friends
rather than trying to prove anything to the ghosts of high school.
But you know that I will be wearing the figure shaping underwear too.